I spy an angry woman behind us in line at the Grand Union. I turn away as her eyes meet mine.
Dad busily chats with the cashier. “Honey, my name is Tom, but you can call me Uncle Tom.”
Dad wraps his arm around my shoulder; “I know you see me in here every week with my daughter.”
The curly-blonde cashier stares at Dad while she holds his change in her outstretched hand.
“Anyway, I’m a psychic. I’ve wanted to tell you this for two weeks, but I didn’t want to scare you.”
Her eyes widen. We both wait impatiently for Dad’s premonition.
He continues, “It’s about your boyfriend. He’s cheating on you.”
The cashier starts to tear up. Dad tries to comfort her. “Don’t ask me how I know these things, but I just do. Don’t worry, honey. You’ll find someone much better. Mark my words. You’ll be married within a few years, and you’ll have two sons.”
I glance back. The customer behind us walks to another clerk. Hurry up, Dad.
While Dad leaves the clerk, sniffling, we walk toward the double set of automatic doors.Today, he asks me, “Jenny. What’s your favorite number?”
“That’s easy Daddy. It’s three and four.”
“Hey that sounds like a great late double.”
“There’s something else I want to tell you Dad.”
“What is it?”
“Someday, I’m going to own one of those fast bikes I saw on T.V.”
“You mean a motorcycle?”
I nod. Yes a motorcycle.
Dad makes a vroom vroom sound.
“What a strange child you are. What five year old tells their father they want a motorcycle one day?”
I shrug my shoulders as he pulls our hotel room key from his pocket. The oval key tag is made of orange plastic with a braid around the edge. The golden number, 23 catches my eye even in the dark hallway.Dad doesn’t usually cook, because we only have a kitchenette with what he calls, “a piece of shit stove.”
But today, Grand Union had his favorite meat on sale.
I watch as Dad heats the pan, vigorously swirling the butter in the bottom. “See Jenny, I want you to pay attention to Poppa. This is the mark of a first class chef. I’m the only human being I know that can sauté chicken livers to taste like filet mignon.”
I’ve never had filet mignon but it must be really gross. Why would anyone want to eat that?
The liver meat expands as Dad slices through the plastic wrap, cutting the price sticker in half, 49 cents. Eeek! The smell. Don’t breathe. Don’t look.
“You see this, baby girl? The butter has to brown first like this. Gives the meat a nutty flavor. And the heat has to be very high so you can flash this in the pan so quick. Yummy! Pretty soon you and Poppa are going to have this delicious, first class meal.”
As the livers hit the pan, they sizzle. The steam rising from the pan turns my stomach immediately.
I stab the spongy meat and lift it toward my mouth while holding my breath. Spit it out! Posion! No wait, he will kill you.
“This is why Daddy loves you. Because you eat my delicious chicken livers, and you gobble them up! Daddy’s been feeding you these ever since you were a baby, you know.”
I fit as many pieces in my mouth as I can without swallowing. Then I excuse myself to use the bathroom, promptly spitting them into the toilet. And flush!
It’s better to be hungry tonight than eat these. It’s ok. Tomorrow we’ll be back to pepperoni and soda.